Raven, your life is worth living regardless of whether someone chooses to speak to you or not. I am not DF but did go through a period of not speaking to my family because they wouldnt respect my choice. We do speak now, but it will never be a tell each other everything relationship. I have zero relationship with my siblings.
please do not play into their emotional manipulation. You can't make someone love you the way you want them to, you will find acceptance and love in other places when you are ready. It will be ok.